Love And Anger

My heart is awash
with conflicting emotions
Love and anger
with such deep devotion.

My love is so strong
I can't keep her away
It feels so good
I wish she would stay.

My anger's so hot
it burns me all day
It makes me wish
she would just go away.

My devotion is deep
like a lifetime of dreams
But together with her
nothing is as seems.

Manipulation and lies
and heartbreaking fights
Confusion and head games
this tunnel has no light

It's always my fault
she can't be to blame
It's all just more
of the same head game

She looks in my eyes
and lies to my face
It all makes me wonder
How did I get to this place.

Such a nice girl
Such a sweet smile
No-one would guess
She could be so vile.

When things are good
My heart takes to wing
The loving and careing
It's such a good thing

When things are bad
I'd just like to cry
I just keep asking
if this must be - why?

Her words cut me deeply
Too deeply to heal
And I'm left to wonder
how I'm supposed to feel?

She says that I love her
more than any have done
She tells me she loves me
more than any under the sun

Then when we fight
She pours out the pain
She makes me feel ugly
Think I'm going insane.

And in my heart
I wish I could see
that wonderful girl
she pretended to be.